It's raining outside and I'm thinking of you

Dear John,

How's life? I hope everything is okay. I know your days are busy and I'm here just praying for your life. Just remember to smile cause it's make me stronger. But, how can a person give you so much strength yet still be your only weakness?

It's been almost a year since the day I met you. We loved, fought, and cried. I'm always going to miss us. You never leave my mind. Even when I have a million things to worry about. Do you feel the same? Maybe you don't care about me anymore. I was the one who always mess up and made you feeling sorry all the time. I know it was tiring.

John, do you really understand my feeling? I'm not a girl that can say my feeling freely. I can't. I wish you could hear all the words I'm too afraid to say. So many times I got dissapointed but I never told you. You're not be here when I do need you. I'm feeling lonely oftentimes. How come?

I don't ask you to do more than that. I know you've been trying.I'm trying too.

Hope everything's gonna be okay sooner.

                                                                                                                                            Marry